Mania.

This is not Bella this is something else. Colors of red are clashing with flashing lights.
Room is spinning like a fucking marry go round from hell. I can't breathe the air is thick.

My hands are trembling sending chills like an earthquake through my body. This has never happened, not like this, this is something beyond me.

I can't make all the voices in my head stop. They aren't whispering, their screaming and speaking in tongues I can't understand. What the fuck?

This doesn't have to make sense because what's happening can't. It's beyond comprehension and there's demon's breathing their fire down my throat. It burns and my body feels like an inferno.

Room spins.
Lights flash.
Heart racing.

Air is contaminated with dense smoke. My lungs struggle. My thoughts feel like a rocket breaking the barrier. The G Force is slamming against my chest.

Make it stop. 
Make it stop.
Make this go away. 

SOMEONE PLEASE BRING ME BACK.

I don't know if I need help I just need to find me. Find the girl that's being smothered by this monster.  It's scary. It's the monster under my bed with glowing red eyes.

 It's trying to get me and I can't escape.

 What do you do when you don't know what you are? 
      Who you are.
                What you've become. 

I don't want this, take it back.

 Fuck you Bipolar take this shit back.
 Leave me the hell alone. 

Make it stop.
Make it fucking stop.