Friday, January 7, 2011

Water Colors

Some complain of not having enough time, my quarrel is with having too much.
When there's no sense of time, no direction of days, everything runs together like watercolors on a canvas.


I am silent, displaced from myself, an outcast to my own being.
Understanding this has become a never ending, vicious battle. There are days it all makes sense and others I fall to pieces like the pieces I can't place.


These four walls have been closing in, constantly harassing my inner peace. Surely there is a hand somewhere reaching to pull me out. Surely I am not alone although I am amongst a ghost town.
Physical pain is irrelevant to the internal pains of a broken, withered heart.
I want nothing more than for the screams inside to be heard.


Are you there? Is anyone there? Can you hear me? .... because I can't hear myself.