"Watching myself when I'm taking strides but here comes the moon and it feels like an informer-quick run away hide before they see you, you know it's all a glow.."
Perfect the ominous sky was as I steadily did my daily usual behind the darkened windows of my office. I couldn't help but to stare out into the blue, perfect never ending pastel blue. So much space, so much freedom. vast like the thoughts flowing through my mind.
A plane sparkling in the distance caught my eye and my thoughts drifted to it. Where it was going, the freedom of it's flight. I wished I could be on it. I didn't care where it was going I just wanted to go with it.
"Walking on water seems parlays now you got my trust and it feels like sabotage when I'm pulling triggers back on myself you know it is all I know.."
Some say you have everything to loose or nothing at all when it comes to choices we make. I found myself saying " I had everything to loose" then quickly pulling the trigger back on my own words.
I'm not fully, completely happy. Some know this, some would never second guess passing me by. I am gleaming on the outside, smiling, laughing, carrying on in my own whimsical ways. Yet there's a void on the inside recently carved like a pumpkin on Halloween. Fresh and bleeding.
"Feel capable of most anything this crippled bird's gonna sing-gonna bring you all the years. Quick turn around look your shadows could, could not, beautiful lies for you is what they do.."
Truths are harsh. My truths are torn.
"I'm all out of faith. this is how I feel. I'm cold and I'm ashamed, lying naked on the floor. Illusions never change into something real. I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn."
"I'm stained with apathy, I'm blind but I can see the tyrant to the bone."
**Bold quotations from OneRepublic's "Tyrant"**
