Secret.

Everything feels so far away. I am closing up and hiding beneath the shadows. My lips don't move and my voice doesn't speak for days upon days. I am alone, almost always, but alone in my own doings.

I created this separation and it's within this secret place that my suffering stays silent. It's within these walls that my tears freely fall and my pain doesn't have to wear a mask.

When I am alone I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not and something I'll never truly be.