It felt good to be out of the rain
In the desert you can remember your name
'Cause there ain't no one for to give you no pain"
Ignorance is bliss. My ignorance came in the form of Mania. For the past few days I could have sworn I had a life changing evolution. Past struggles had left my mind and focus had restored balance. Confidence had kept me company shielding me from the battlefield that has always been my mind.
Now He's gone and I'm not sure where to start looking or if I even should. Was this perhaps a mere moment of heart racing false euphoria stirred by the desire's of Mania?
The plans of errands and the focus to get things done has fled my body replacing it with weakness. Sorrow has now taken Confidence's place.
All things of interest went by the wayside and I found myself bringing one of my mother's old musical boxes home. It's a beautiful mahogany chest decorated with details of flowers, musical notes and french horns and inside are tiny silver disc covered with little pins. When these disc are set to motion the lamellae comes alive with harmony. A glorious sound a Reuge music box. Henry Purcell's "Memory" is moving me to tears and though it makes me cry I don't want it stop so I wind the golden wheel as tightly as it can go and let it run through, over and over.
As I have said before and as I always say, don't understand and I am once again breathless.
