Nanny.

Nanny,

I love you so much and miss you more than my words could ever speak. You were such a brilliant inspiration to all that crossed your path. You were never forgotten and you are alive in us all.

There's never a day that passes by that I am not told how much I am like you. My smile is a reflection of yours and my struggles walk the same path.

 I am living in this world and existing everyday as you did. I wish you were still here. I wish I could ask you so many things.

How you did this and how you coped with the silent strife.  How you walked around in this world with such a captivating smile hiding your pain. I feel what you did. I am living life as a your carbon copy.

I still feel your presence everyday through the breezes of the wind, the warmth of the sun, and the blanket of stars in the night.

For years I slept with Ellie, the only physical thing that I have of you. Every night I clung to her and  couldn't sleep with out her. Finally, after so many years and so many travels I put her down but now she is back. She was there in my arms arms last night as I clutched her through my tears.

I love you Nanny, give me strength because I can't give it to myself.