Finally there's room to breathe and a chance to pull my head above these rising waters.
I suppose negativity has been my only friend, a alibi that's kept everyone at bay.
I had forgotten the loneliness this new life entails. Being a face among strangers; existing like an inconvenient nuance.
I understand there are problems much greater than mine. There are people who have unimaginable struggles. Struggles no one should ever have to face.
I try to lean on this understanding. I try to use my blessing as the raft to which I cling, the raft that keeps me floating.
My mind is like a roller coaster.
One moment it's filled with excitement; a steady rise of anticipation.
But with a blink of a eye, a sudden drop around the bend, it's falling.
Falling faster then comprehension can reach.
Falling faster than anyone could.
A constant rise and fall that makes me weary. An unchanging variable to a formula of human repellent, a formula of loneliness, my homemade concoction.
One with a stench that's hard to conceal.
It's a crazy ride, this life, my life.
Selfish is the one that can only see themselves but when the mirror's broken and the window's black; it's impossible to see anything at all.
Today I am OK.
Today I will fight.
I will focus on the present.
The here.
The now.
I will wipe the dust from my window and let what lye's behind shine through.
I will do my best to shake this loneliness. It's quite possible I care for things I shouldn't.
It's quite possible I need a change of heart, a change of ways, new direction to walk.
And If I walk alone;so be it; but even if I do; God will be there right behind me.
I reckon' today may be a good one, and if not, I'll make it.
I suppose negativity has been my only friend, a alibi that's kept everyone at bay.
I had forgotten the loneliness this new life entails. Being a face among strangers; existing like an inconvenient nuance.
I understand there are problems much greater than mine. There are people who have unimaginable struggles. Struggles no one should ever have to face.
I try to lean on this understanding. I try to use my blessing as the raft to which I cling, the raft that keeps me floating.
My mind is like a roller coaster.
One moment it's filled with excitement; a steady rise of anticipation.
But with a blink of a eye, a sudden drop around the bend, it's falling.
Falling faster then comprehension can reach.
Falling faster than anyone could.
A constant rise and fall that makes me weary. An unchanging variable to a formula of human repellent, a formula of loneliness, my homemade concoction.
One with a stench that's hard to conceal.
It's a crazy ride, this life, my life.
Selfish is the one that can only see themselves but when the mirror's broken and the window's black; it's impossible to see anything at all.
Today I am OK.
Today I will fight.
I will focus on the present.
The here.
The now.
I will wipe the dust from my window and let what lye's behind shine through.
I will do my best to shake this loneliness. It's quite possible I care for things I shouldn't.
It's quite possible I need a change of heart, a change of ways, new direction to walk.
And If I walk alone;so be it; but even if I do; God will be there right behind me.
I reckon' today may be a good one, and if not, I'll make it.
