Picture a broken down 82 caddie on the corner of a busy street, smoke and heat bellowing from it's hood while driver shakes her head in disbelief of being stuck against her will.
That driver, the girl who's eyes are misting over knowing she's stuck with no one to call and no where to go is me. The broken down POS is my body.
I'm trapped behind the wheel of my own will. I'm stuck in a body that's weak beyond it's years.
Where this stems from?
I'm sick,
again.
My head a victim to a jackhammer and my throat and lungs are the center of a raging riot.
I can't breath without coughing and wheezing.
Surely it couldn't be more than just a bad head cold but I'm too stubborn today to pay some person in a white coat to tell me so. I've paid more than my pockets can carry to people with no answers. I call them people because if they were "Doctors" then they should know. Of course being in the medical field I know there are sometimes bizarre cases with no medical reason.
Perhaps I am one of those.
Sudifed, Dayquil, NyQuil, Theraful, Motrin, Motrin...fucking Motrin.
Does it all work? Doesn't feel like it.
Will it work? Fuck if I know.
So overstated is the saying " I am sick and tired of being sick and tired" yet it's EXACTLY the essence of me.
As soon as one thing passes another comes head on. I sometimes wish something would just stay around at least long enough for it to make sense. Surely someone who's 28, takes vitamins, blah blah blah..... infomercial kinda life, Shouldn't be getting this FUCKING SICK so FUCKING much.
That driver, the girl who's eyes are misting over knowing she's stuck with no one to call and no where to go is me. The broken down POS is my body.
I'm trapped behind the wheel of my own will. I'm stuck in a body that's weak beyond it's years.
Where this stems from?
I'm sick,
again.
My head a victim to a jackhammer and my throat and lungs are the center of a raging riot.
I can't breath without coughing and wheezing.
Surely it couldn't be more than just a bad head cold but I'm too stubborn today to pay some person in a white coat to tell me so. I've paid more than my pockets can carry to people with no answers. I call them people because if they were "Doctors" then they should know. Of course being in the medical field I know there are sometimes bizarre cases with no medical reason.
Perhaps I am one of those.
Sudifed, Dayquil, NyQuil, Theraful, Motrin, Motrin...fucking Motrin.
Does it all work? Doesn't feel like it.
Will it work? Fuck if I know.
So overstated is the saying " I am sick and tired of being sick and tired" yet it's EXACTLY the essence of me.
As soon as one thing passes another comes head on. I sometimes wish something would just stay around at least long enough for it to make sense. Surely someone who's 28, takes vitamins, blah blah blah..... infomercial kinda life, Shouldn't be getting this FUCKING SICK so FUCKING much.
